My life is being taken over by randomness

So y'all are going to hafta wait until I organize before I post here.  Maybe that means not until Thursday.

Boy I screwed up

Augh, I HATE it when I really screw-up, relationship-wise.

I feel like such a dirt-bag.  And it's because I was trying to do the right thing, apparently.

I'm such a dummy.

TOW: Proximity versus Rhythm

You know, I love the beat of a bongo drum.  It's kinda fun, and funky at the same time, and anybody can play it.  It's fun, nice sound.  Friendly, even.

However, no one likes drums that sound right in their ears.  A pounding in your head is not a fun sound or feeling.  It's too close.  You want it to be farther away, so you can enjoy it.


Lately, I have been thinking about what kind of person I am, and what kind of people other people are.  In relationships, we have preferences for how we want to interact with people.  We have needs, wants and desires built around two central vibes, two central rules that govern our lives.  There may be more, but I usually find we want one thing or the other more.

Some people like to describe their relationships in distance.  We have people that are close to us, people that are far away, and we feel best when the people we like best are closest to us.  To these people, relationships are better the more we see these people, interact with them on a daily basis in a meaningful way.


Others, I think, fall into the category of rhythm.  It's not about when we see people, but how.  We want our experiences to make sense in a certain time frame, to a certain drum beat, for people to feel our rhythm and get in sync with the way we do things.  We want life to move at a certain pace with certain kind of relationships.  It's not how far, it's how fast, and whether our relationships fit into our personal patterns.


This is directly related to the philosophy of Heidegger.  Heidegger wrote a really big book called Being and Time.  He talked a lot about space, and time, and what they meant to each other.  To make this completely obtuse to most of my readers, in philosophy terms, it means some of us are more interested in Dasien and some of us more interested in Time.


Or, in Brennan terms, some of us are more interested in Proximity, and some of us in Rhythm.

I have found that deep down inside of me, I'm really all about proximity.  I want to keep those special to me close to me.  I used to be a lot more about rhythm,  But that was when everything was easy; I didn't have a care in the world at the time. 

These days, I find I want to be close to the people I care about, and I want them to be close to me.  We can't always be near the ones we love, but we can find ways to keep them in our lives.  And sometimes, yeah, timing matters.  But more importantly, especially during hard times, all that matters is being together.

Or at least that's what I've been thinking lately.

No TOW today

Normally, I would put up a TOW right about now, but I'm a bit busy with enjoying the remnants of my Sunday...that, and I have to go do a crapload of ironing at the moment.  Sigh.  Anyways, should be up tomorrow.

VOW: What Facebook is For

So very true

TOW: Creases

Today was the first day of my internship (and I have a cartoon I'm making specifically for it!  It'll be great!) and today was a total change of pace for me.  I went from having a couple classes a day and socializing all week, to going back to the grind.  It was a change.  I forgot how much of a change.

Now, more importantly, I was ironing today and it got me thinking...I know, I know.  I can already hear you, in your faux British accent, "How DROLL, dah-ling."  That's not the point!

Anyways.

When I was ironing my pants, I never realized this before, but. if you try and line up the creases properly, so that you don't make a double-crease. and officially ruin your pants forever, (because it's impossible to get out a double crease once you get one in.  You might as well buy new pants.) you actually do the thing you don't want to do, and you make a double, sometimes, a triple crease.  I found, today especially, the more you try and line up a crease, and make it work, the less chance it has of happening.  I'm positive I could make this into a graph.  Actually, I will! 

Well, anyways, what I realized from doing this very simple, and quite frankly mundane task, is that there is something to be said for doing things without over-thinking them.  Creases in your pants usually know which way to go so that you have 'happy pants' (ie. not full of mistakes) whereas the more time you spend planning creases, the less time you have to yourself.

If we apply this to life (and when don't I universalize everything small in my life?) it's good to realize that some things are better when we don't try too hard.  Sometimes, the harder we try, the more we fail. And sometimes, the more we relax and let life take the reins in our own lives, the more pants we have.  Er, I mean, the fewer ugly creases we make.  Um....augh! 

So, don't over-think things.  Just do them.  And you'll have your own personal brand of perfection.

And that's the thought of the week.

VOW: I love this horse

I do.  Ahahahahaha.

Holy Man

I'm so tired, you guys.  I had some great ideas for posting, but my head feels like a giant ball that's being bounced around.  I blame the hayfever.  Hopefully there'll be time tomorrow night!