Contemplative

You know, these days come and go, when you feel that things are beginning, and ending at the same time. I had a really fun  time where I went to a networking event.  Met some really interesting people.  (My twitter count has been rising these days!) 

It's weird because I'm so tired and ready to sleep and tomorrow is just packed as a work day. But...all I can think about is what is going on in my head.  Do you ever feel like sometimes you want to sleep, but then you just want to lay on your bed, staring at the ceiling, thnking about who-knows what?  I guess that's the kind of mood that I'm in currently.  I feel like not good, but not bad, either.  I guess it's just good to go out, meet some new people, or at least meet some people in person that you knew online, or even it's good just to get out of the house, really.

I think one of the things I miss more than anything about not being a kid anymore is that there's no sense of a 'net' in your life.  Before, you had family, friends, common interests and common goals to keep you safe in life, but the truth is that you realize that nothing is safe and nothing is sacred in life.  You hope and hope and hope that one day everything in your life will just click like the way you always hoped it would and then you realize that that just isn't going to be possible now, maybe not ever.  But you still make the best of it and slug on anyways because you know that life is worth living, even on days when you can't remember why you got out of bed in the first place.

Sometimes life can be really sad, but more than anything, life is a beautiful thing that shouldn't be wasted.  We don't get many chances in life but as long as we use the ones we get to the fullest extent we can I don't think we have anything to really be sad about or anything to regret.  I know that I have not always done everything the way I wanted, but I'm glad that I at least tried to do things I wanted.  I know that things in life don't always work out but I know there are reasons for that.  I'm learning every step of the way but more than that it's all about cherishing what you have.  I'm really grateful I've managed to get as far as I have.  I know I'm not perfect but I'm definitely trying.

Well, that was a bit of a stream of consciousness...I guess I should go off to bed.   =)