Sorry I've been so absent from this blog. Between me making a video game for iPhone (long story) and the new job that continues to get more interesting by the day (to say the least) I've had my hands full. Add in some friends, some social engagements and I'm busy. But most of the time I'm working on the video game...it's pretty much a full time job on top of my full time job.
I'm doing better at managing my workloads with the game, but the truth is, there's still a ton to do. I'm teaching myself coding, while I go along and work on my graphic design skills (which have gotten exponentially better over the last couple months) and find out business stuff I need to know to develop on the iPhone. It's time consuming because once I finish one thing, I just start on the next.
But I've learned a lot about how to switch gears quickly thanks to my job, and to this project.
I'll try and keep things updated here, but between blogging and tweeting for the video game account it's keeping me busy. And busy is good, even if it's stay-in-your-room-and-don't leave busy. =)
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Sunday, March 11, 2012
TOW: It's not what you have...
Sometimes living in a big city, you compare yourself and what you have to what other people have. I know that I often find myself caught up in a race against other people and the things they are doing. Often the feeling you are left with is, "Why does this person have so much, but I have so little?" It's not the comparison that bothers me, I find, but the feeling your left with. The feeling like there's a big hole where all the appreciation for what's in your life should be.
I find myself often thinking, "Yes, I have this, this and this, but I don't have this, this and this." And the focus always seems to be on the things I don't have, on the problems in my life, on the little failures that don't actually mean anything. And finally, I often ask, "Why can't I be happy, with all the good things in my life?"
Sometimes, when life gets off track, the one and only thing to remember is that happiness comes through trying, not through hoping happiness will arrive. More than that, I realized that for the last couple years, I have been focusing on the problems that are in my life, on the things I wish that weren't in my life. It's kind of like focusing on what you hate, about yourself, about your life, about your day. And then I would try and pull myself out of some deep hole I was in by focusing on what I love and trying to busy myself with that.
What is strange is that when I thought back to those times when I was truly happy, I realized it wasn't because I wasn't focusing on what I loved, or what I hated. Those two things are constantly in a battle for my attention, but that's not how we can be happy. Instead, when I was happy, I was focused not on things, but on people. And not on people that I love, but on the people that love me. It's not what I do, but what others do for me that makes me happy. We can do all the good deeds in the world for our friends, and yes it can give us a kind of happiness. But it's not what we do for our friends, or our families, our peers or strangers. It's what they do for us.
It's not what you have. It's what you are given that makes you happy.
I find myself often thinking, "Yes, I have this, this and this, but I don't have this, this and this." And the focus always seems to be on the things I don't have, on the problems in my life, on the little failures that don't actually mean anything. And finally, I often ask, "Why can't I be happy, with all the good things in my life?"
Sometimes, when life gets off track, the one and only thing to remember is that happiness comes through trying, not through hoping happiness will arrive. More than that, I realized that for the last couple years, I have been focusing on the problems that are in my life, on the things I wish that weren't in my life. It's kind of like focusing on what you hate, about yourself, about your life, about your day. And then I would try and pull myself out of some deep hole I was in by focusing on what I love and trying to busy myself with that.
What is strange is that when I thought back to those times when I was truly happy, I realized it wasn't because I wasn't focusing on what I loved, or what I hated. Those two things are constantly in a battle for my attention, but that's not how we can be happy. Instead, when I was happy, I was focused not on things, but on people. And not on people that I love, but on the people that love me. It's not what I do, but what others do for me that makes me happy. We can do all the good deeds in the world for our friends, and yes it can give us a kind of happiness. But it's not what we do for our friends, or our families, our peers or strangers. It's what they do for us.
It's not what you have. It's what you are given that makes you happy.
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