TOW: Changes

You know, it seems like most people in my life are having working crises.  Either their jobs are changing, or their job is turning into something that they didn't expect.

I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that most of us are into 'career' style jobs, and the question that always comes after a certain amount of time, is 'what am I doing here?' Is this really the life I want?

I think we all feel the ticking of the clock, and most of us wonder, what more could we do? Are we making the mark we want to make? 

I often wonder, too, am I making the mark that I am meant to be making?  Is there more good I could be doing in the world, and if so, in what way?

I think all we can do is muddle through, and look for those bright spots.  Life never goes the way we plan it to go.  We all wish we could be billion-dollar successes, most of us won't be.  Those of us who will be probably never expected to be.  Heck, most of us just want a steady paycheck and a smile on our face 3/4 of the year.  Most of us would settle for that and a bit of peace of mind.

Life is hard. 

Vancouver!

So many good times, some highlights:

• Seeing my cousin Lisa again after 13 years apart, and getting to know her kids
• Surprising my soon to be step-sister Kristine that I was in Kelowna
• Meeting Warren, Renee's husband, who's really swell
• Eating at Forage and buying myself a really expensive meal
• Spending time with Derek, who hasn't changed at all
• Reconnecting with Eva, my university friend who I haven't seen for almost 10 years
• Visiting my grandmother's old trailer in Vernon
• Seeing the lake and the mountains in Kelowna and Vancouver....it was just THE BEST

It was a trip of reconnection...with the kind of person I am, with family, with friends.  Of course, I worked long days while I was there, and the election was a mess to watch in the states.  But overall, I ate amazing food, I laughed and had hugs with those I loved, and sort of reconnected with who I was.  I barely slept, and every night I fell into bed exhausted.

It was a great trip overall.  I must go back, and bring Alex!