TOW: You, 2.0

I have been doing a lot of thinking this week, and most of that thinking revolves around the fact that I am remembering all the things that I used to do, which I enjoyed. You know, like just doing silly things, passing the time, watching internet tv, being crazy, all the sort of things. Mainly, just things that I thought...made me...me.

And it makes me wonder, what happened to that first Brennan, Brennan 1.0? I mean, where did I lose the person I like to be, and started becoming the kind of person, quite frankly, I really hate?

I am going to take you back in time, about eight months ago, to the...RECESSION. *DUN DUN DUN.*


It was a dark time in my life.


And there were a lot of bad things happening (Why do bad things always happen to me between February and May? I have no idea.) and really, it just couldn't get much worse unless I was out on the street, begging for change.

My social life was terrible, I was in a bad situation with work, social life, living in crack-den central and just not enjoying life. Shortly put, I was living the working-class dream. All I was missing was some Bryllcreem and suspenders and I could have been the lead character in an Arthur Miller novel.


Anyways, school started, and instead of working, and repeating the same tasks over and over again, I was learning. And learning something I actually wanted to learn, as opposed to just...learning what one type of bread was called. You know, so I could bag it. Fun.

And now that I am focused not only on learning, but on, you know, enjoying my life again, I feel kind of liberated. Because I kept thinking I was supposed to be this kind of person...you know, adult-like, career-oriented, very focused on the future, always going places and meeting people and doing things, and looking special and being a big deal. (This is what living in a big city does to you. Sigh.) In short, I thought I was supposed to have a boring life.

So, I guess the point is, that 'Me' 2.0, is more like the me I-used-to-be, versus the me-I-was-trying-to-be...I just finally got out of the way of myself.

What I have realized, is the thing that I liked about me in the past, is that my life IS EXCITING, and I like BEING excited about it. And, I had just been missing out on my own excitement, and the doldrums had just gotten to me so hard, that I thought I, really, couldn't have fun anymore. And that I could do the things I loved, and still love them. Who cares what other people think, I should just be me.

And so should you. You, the 'you' you like to be.