Reflection: Doubt

I opened up an e-mail from one of my spiritual newsletters (bypassing over the Franciscan deal to buy a Christmas calendar for Cyber Monday) and it had a piece at the end with reflection questions on what I am doubting, and to pray on it. I thought I would share:

1. Where am I experiencing doubt in my life?
My next big move, my next big skill to develop and master

2.  What is it that God says about me, as God’s child, within this doubt?
That I am having a very similar experience to many people I know...I am in the good company of high achievers with crossroads in their lives!

3. Write a prayer detailing this doubt

Dear God,

As you know, I have spent many a night, wondering where my life is going, where my talents might be best used.  How can I help the people around me grow, to flourish, and for love and laughter to surround them and me, to keep me safe in dark times and good times, to have me watch well the things that need watching, and tend to those who are suffering. 

How can I best use my talents?  Which one should I choose?  Which is right for me?  Which will lead me to ruin?  How shall I seek things that bring me joy and success and still stay true to You, Your Commandments, and Your Spirit.

I have no answers, and I expect none in return.  With an unfailing heart, strong in faith and hope,  I shall twist and turn down a narrow path of those seekers that came before me, but in my own way.  I seek humility and righteousness, justice and peace. 

I hope you take my doubt and recognize I wish to journey towards you in a straight path, to run unfailing, to do things perfectly.  It is my doubt that holds me back. I journey further towards you, and ever back.