TOW: Feelin' Alright

You know, I have a lot of things to do this week.  And I would like to take up the old adage:  "The Devil finds mischief for idle hands."

This is so true.

I can easily say the less I have to do in a week that really challenges me, the less I have to do that makes me think, "Wow, I'm doing the things I want in the way I want," the more I feel bad.  I do.  I just feel bad when I'm not expressing 'me.' The more time I try to deal with daily details, small things and boring to-do items that grind on my creativity, my personality, I(and frankly) my well-being, the more I feel like ending it all, and taking it all with me.  (Hypothetically speaking, of course.  I don't actually wish anyone any harm, not even my worst enemies, if such things exist.)

I know that I have to work hard to feel good about the things I do.  I think I have been expecting my life to magically right itself when I'm surrounded by things that are constantly draining on me, and not helping me grow as a human being. Thankfully, I have been able to limit a lot of that business, and now I am focusing on the most important thing in the world:  Me.  And it feels really great.  My life was meant to be busy.  I was meant to work hard.  All the time.  I like it.  I don't know where I got this idea that I should try and slow things down.  Let's speed them up again!  =D

How hard have you been working to achieve your dreams lately?  What makes you feel inspired?  It's funny, it doesn't take much to make me 'feel' successful.  I just need to work with people I like, and work hard.  That's pretty much it.

Well-being for me is tied to being able to express myself, to create myself, the kind of me I want to be.  And I know that there are a lot of things in my life that aren't quite right and that there are a lot of things that never seem to turn out the way I would expect, but I am happy that I am starting to do things the way I want.  And, eventually, I will be able to do the things I want, all the time.  You know, when I'm really famous! 

Then again, maybe that will limit my freedom a bit.  Eh heh.

I am happy for all the friends I have in my life, and I'm thinking of you all the time.  This year is going to be the best one ever!  Believe it!