Monday, December 04, 2017

Interesting topic: Quantum tunneling

So the other day my friend Liz and I were having a discussion about science, and she made a joke about quantum tunneling.  While I feel like I understood the basic concept, I suddenly became overtake with the desire to understand more, since the basic concept of quantum tunneling that Liz explained goes like this:

Quantum tunneling refers to the quantum mechanical phenomenon where a particle tunnels through a barrier that it classically could not surmount.

Which, if you understand anything about physics, makes you go 'huh?' 

It's like how some particles want to be somewhere in the world, and they go on a bear hunt...because if they can't go around it, they just go through it! ^_^ 

I had a lot of fun learning about something so fascinating and different.  This video was a good intro to it.  (Though I read a lot more about wave particles than I ever though I would!)


Monday, November 27, 2017

Reflection: Doubt

I opened up an e-mail from one of my spiritual newsletters (bypassing over the Franciscan deal to buy a Christmas calendar for Cyber Monday) and it had a piece at the end with reflection questions on what I am doubting, and to pray on it. I thought I would share:

1. Where am I experiencing doubt in my life?
My next big move, my next big skill to develop and master

2.  What is it that God says about me, as God’s child, within this doubt?
That I am having a very similar experience to many people I know...I am in the good company of high achievers with crossroads in their lives!

3. Write a prayer detailing this doubt

Dear God,

As you know, I have spent many a night, wondering where my life is going, where my talents might be best used.  How can I help the people around me grow, to flourish, and for love and laughter to surround them and me, to keep me safe in dark times and good times, to have me watch well the things that need watching, and tend to those who are suffering. 

How can I best use my talents?  Which one should I choose?  Which is right for me?  Which will lead me to ruin?  How shall I seek things that bring me joy and success and still stay true to You, Your Commandments, and Your Spirit.

I have no answers, and I expect none in return.  With an unfailing heart, strong in faith and hope,  I shall twist and turn down a narrow path of those seekers that came before me, but in my own way.  I seek humility and righteousness, justice and peace. 

I hope you take my doubt and recognize I wish to journey towards you in a straight path, to run unfailing, to do things perfectly.  It is my doubt that holds me back. I journey further towards you, and ever back.


Sunday, November 05, 2017

TOW: Tools change, but the world changes very little

You know, when social media tools first came out, I had no idea how important they would be.

I can now say that my desire to focus on being an expert on rising marketing and communication tools was a good lesson in how technology works.  Kuhn's theory on paradigm shifts worked in real action for me over the last 8 years or so.

While all of that is true, technology can only take the work of people so far.  I have spent a lot of time working with a variety of technologies, and I talk to my friends in separate industries, that often have separate tools working for them that do similar things, but work better within an industry paradigm, with their precepts for language and symbols, different than mine, which are often focused on communication than numbers.  (It was put especially well by a wedding guest this weekend, when
she said, "You work with Excel? I'm more of a Word girl myself.")

The kinds of tools change, but really, humans create the same communication errors over and over again.  And the more we try and build in 'nanny-like' interference in communication tools, especially online ones, the more that the red tape starts to cause interpersonal errors, and suddenly tools are not tools, but masters.

One of the thing I am struck by, is how much people want strong sets of tools to help them organize, and rule their lives, depending on their industry, and yet most people use the first ones they were introduced to, way back when.  (Excel, Word, AutoCAD, etc.)  It goes to show how far back our biases for some of the worst tools in the world are.

I feel like this is a subject I could write a whole book or perhaps a chapter of a book about, but I'll stop here with a thought:  Online tools come with a price to time spent in other ways.  Most of the time, these tools can be helpful over time.  But they are often extremely labour intensive at the start.  And one has to ask if these tools will help, or hinder people, depending on the makeup of the team.

Wednesday, October 04, 2017

Working Volunteering

I recently finished up a great communications volunteer opportunity with several friends and colleagues of mine...and I have to say, it was amazing.  The experience I got, the things I learned, they were all very relevant to what I do, day in, day out.  I basically got to work volunteer.  It was fun.

I found there were some skills I was good at, and not good at.  And the fun thing about being a volunteer, is that at the end of the day, you are accountable for your reputation, and not much else.  And even then people don't treat you that harshly because hey, you're working for free.

I think in the future I would really like to do more things like this: where I give my time to causes that I enjoy, without it becoming too huge of a burden.  I think my challenge is always knowing when to say no, and when to pull back a bit, and to not take everything too seriously. 

I learned a lot about myself, and I think that's the best thing that can happen with these kinds of opportunities.


Sunday, September 17, 2017

A year in the life of 33...looking back

You know, this year has been filled with some ups, and some downs, and some in-betweens.  I thought it would be nice to capture what I did since turning 33.

Work:

-Me and a team member won a $10,000 grant for a project concept we worked on against 800 other applicants
-I project managed 3 projects over $10,000
-I covered my job and covered my colleague's medical leave
-I pitched a concept for funding
I worked on a very cool communications project, which is almost here!  Whew!

Life:
 -Went many cool places, this was a year of travel.  (I might have to cut back this year for the sake of my budget!)
 -Thought a lot about the future
-Made several new friends!
-got to go to Vancouver for work, and managed to visit and reconnect with family that I love


Had some great brunches

Saw Robert once

Reconnected with Kim (I love Kim!)

Saw my sis from another miss

Reconnected with my beautiful cousin, Lisa

Made a not-so-beautiful painting

Saw some amazing art in Rome

Also saw some amazing architecture

Had an epic onsie party!


Spent important time with the most beautiful woman I know...my mom.

Helped Karl move into his new apartment

Went to a friendly Xmas party

Reunited with one of my very good friends, Eva!

Brittany stopped by!  We got rained on by wine here. :(

Had a guys night out

Raised $1,000 for my hospital

Found some great lighting

Visited with Robert and Sven

Helped friends celebrate birthdays
Taught Alex how to ski

Went hiking

Made friends with a giant duck

Went to a blue jays game with my mom and dad

Took them to a wildlife reserve

Met my cousin, Pernille, from Denmark

Had a beautiful dinner in Grona Lund (Oh Teddy!  Why didn't we take a photo with you?)

Watched Hamlet live in Denmark

Visited the Queen's castle in Sweden

Visited the ABBA museum and had the best time of my life

Saw some awesome viking ships

Reunited Tyler with a high school friend


Took a great photo

Saw the eclipse

Won a stuffed toy from the CNE (Goodbye, $20!)


Had a great birthday party
It was a great year, if not quite what I was expecting.  Looking forward to 34!


Monday, August 07, 2017

An old poem

The snow fell near me
the tree in the valley low
a bird twittered, flew.

Sunday, July 23, 2017

TOW: When you don't get what you want


I had written a long post about this, but decided it was all just complaining about how good my life is...so I'll just leave this here and call it a night. :)


Thursday, June 08, 2017

TOW: Differences

You know, I used to think that if everyone were more like me, the world would be a better place.  There would be all these smart, extroverted, sunshine-side-of life people making their way and wanting to be friends with everyone and everything.

However, there's lots of things I don't like to do:

  • Manual labour
  • Being mean to people (sometimes you have to be mean)
  • Financial documents
  • Being a grocery clerk
  • Anything involving being dirty

In other words, I'm not really suited for so many important, necessary tasks in life.

I have noticed lately, a trend in both the media and activist movements to shun people who are not part of their special interest group, proclaiming that their 'difference' makes them special, and anything that seems like a 'majority' of any kind should be viewed as suspicious, or perhaps even some kind of conspiracy that is intentionally trying to harm vulnerable populations in our society.

When coming upon these arguments, it reminds me of Aristotle's political theory, which was that politics was considered a natural state of being for humans.  Part of the reason we come together is to avoid extinction, to better ourselves, to have a 'good life' by putting in place measures, both social and legal, that creates order for us.  And it's natural for us to be reasonable, to come to agreements with all sorts of different kinds of people because we have language, and we can come to agreements about many different kinds of subjects by using reason.  Notice, we very rarely come to agreements by using our feelings...for how we feel will change, but the structure of logic in language rarely does.  In reality, arguments may change, though their structure must follow a 'reasonable' pattern. 

My generation is a generation of individualism, born out of post-modern thinking, socialism, libertarianism, and other movements that stress the individual, their rights, and their freedoms.  But the reason that the post-modernists, anarchists, and other will often fail in their endeavours is because their activism is rooted in a kind of nihilism which most usually takes away, and rarely replaces.

In the future, for my generation to survive, and to be well, my generation must be one of not just rights, but also responsibilities.  As we age, I hope we become Hegelian-Kantians, (if such a thing were possible) because the best world is one which assimilates different viewpoints not out of malice or misunderstanding, but out of responsibility for the other, and responsibility for ourselves.

I reject fundamentally the idea we are so different we cannot learn from each other, we cannot be friends to each kind of culture, even in our difference.  After all, all kinds of civilizations were built with people with very different ideas.  But those who constantly chant revolution, often end up the way of the French Revolution, where everyone and anyone can go to the guillotine, including themselves.  The best way forward is always together, and not backwards for just one of us, but forward for as many of us as can be managed, responsibly, with an eye to fairness in all things, and consideration for difference without making difference the centre of any agreement.


Wednesday, March 29, 2017

TOW: Self improvement

You know, the hardest thing about working on a business idea is not the idea itself, but where you're going to find everything you need to make an idea successful.  I'm still working on business stuff, but now I am more working on myself...and the things I need to do to be better at what I do and who I am.

I have been reading a book which says research shows us that successful people are mostly successful because of their beliefs, and often in spite of their character flaws, some of which are quite damaging. 

Lately I have been examining my beliefs, looking for my flaws.  I often thought I had a good handle on them, but these days I wonder if I have been doing things that get in the way of me being successful.

I can't say I've gotten very far with this thought but definitely far enough to know I have some work to do personally.  I think there's part of me that needs improving on..even if it's in small ways. 

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Working on entrepreneur stuff

So I have (on somewhat of a whim) signed up for an entrepreneur 101 course.  While it's not my first try at something like this, it is the first time I'm quite serious about it.  I think before I was very passionate....now I think I care more about where the money is coming from, day one. ^_^

So some ideas I have thought about and discarded thus far:

  • Women's shoes creation (bespoke)
  • t-shirt business
  • some sort of women's fashion wear
  • Some sort of men's fashion (what's with all the fashion ideas?)


Current idea: online courses

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Valentine's Day

While we weren't originally planning a Valentines Day event, I got some very nice flowers and we went out for a very nice dinner.