Not because of what anyone did. In fact, several of my friends and Alex did was really sweet and they tried to put something together for me so I enjoyed myself. And I did....sorta! But in the end, it felt a bit like a pity attempt. And there's no party that's worse than a pity party. And I don't know that everyone had such a great time.
I realized, I think, the only way that I would have a good birthday, the kind I LOVE, the kind that says 'this is worthy of good memories' is for me to be really clear about what I want to do, and invite people along to do what 'I' want..because I realized the problem was me, not other people!
This year, here's some highlights:
- Alex got me a really, really nice present....he's improving! :)
- I got to go to Dolly Parton with my mentor, Barry...a good deed and a great time with someone I admire
- Played an escape game! Was so fun!!! :)
- I had two amazing meals....mexican on my actual birthday, and duck fat fries on Saturday
- Went to my favourite martini place
- Got some cute and amazing cards
- Had laughs and saw people I loved, I felt very, very loved
I wonder what next year will bring. I hope it's just as good as this year!
